bella is becoming more and more cognizant of her surroundings and it's starting to dawn on me that she's going to soon mimic... me. not that i'm having an oprah ah-hah moment or anything, but it's starting to occur to me that i need to start being more mindful about the little things. like i need to start making more of an effort to take care of myself and stop being such a bum, rolling out of bed and heading off to work not caring about what i'm wearing or how nappy my hair is... and pay closer attention to what i'm eating and the things i'm saying... if i'm speaking negatively of other people or complaining a lot... how i behave if i'm upset...
... it will really start freaking me out when i start to see myself reflected back to me in her. oh, the joys and perils of being a mother to a daughter!
i mean, it's really funny right now, when she does simple things like shake her head when i shake my head, or stick her tongue out when i'm doing the same. but i know she's going to start really understanding things even before i realize it, because she's so dang smart already, and the weight of that responsibility is enormous!
so, no more wandering the house in my pj's all day on my day off, and eating junky food in front of her (or at all, if i can help it... haha), or making fun of people when i'm people watching with dan (i'm soooo bad about that!). little eyes are watching!
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